Carmen and Jeanne released

Yes, it's finally done. Please go to hentaicook.com to check it out.

Aching Dreams 3 is next. Yes, I will get around to the voice files for 2. I'm really excited for 3. By the end of 2, I was really tired of the characters and the setting. I absolutely would not like to make a direct sequel to 2.

So AD3. I'm ready to work on it full time. I think a year is the shortest time I can make the game in. Of course there's the programmer Will, and he will clear a lot of the headache around the game for me, as well as add GAME to it.

Aching Dreams 3 will be an open development, at least on my part of the game. That means you'll see *almost* everything there is, including story, art, and game design, right up to the game's release.

My personal life has been exciting. I had sex with a woman. I was on my way out of the whole dating scene, but then it just happened. I went out with her and we clicked. She stayed the night in my room. Hmm. This stuff is pretty personal. Oh well. I don't really want to turn it into a relationship because I want to stay single and make AD3. She's a good woman though. Big titties.

My car didn't pass smog so... I don't have the money to fix that. Guess I'll just get used to staying indoors. Not like I went out much anyway. I quit caffeine, and now I'm drinking only water.

So lemme get started on 3.

3-4: Worked on Elaine's body drawing.



4-5 I'm cleaning up the lines on the naked version of her. I wanted a lot of physical differences between the characters. Facial features, particularly the style in which they are drawn, are different between Elaine and Commander Isabel. Breast size, breast shape, body height, body fat...these will all differ somewhat. Isabel looks 6'2", but she does have heels. Elaine seems like a 5'8 or 9 to me, in the line drawing. She is definitely taller in her colored picture to the left, but I decided to change this to make her shorter. She SEEMS short but that might be an illusion because of Isabel standing next to her. I'll add clothes later. Time for bed. Tomorrow is Hobby Day, so fun times for me. Board games for the first time in a looong time.

April 2nd

5:30-6:00 Woke up. Yep. That's just how life is for me. Apparently I should start sleeping earlier because I have a D&D session on Wednesday. Clicked on the internet for half an hour, you know how it is.

6:00- Sandwich created. Consists of cheap whole wheat, beef slices, hot mustard, and TWO proc cheeses because I feel like being a big spender today. Estimated cost of sandwich: 80 cents. Did the laundry.

Today’s unfortunate sexbot breakthrough = a poster you can make out with

We are headed towards a Masturbation Singularity. A masturbation singularity refers to the hypothetical future emergence of greater-than-human-intercourse masturbation through technological means.

I'm fascinated by Japanese Culture. They have hug pillows for their favorite characters, have inventions that stimulate sexual organs, love dolls, virtual girlfriends for the DS, fleshlights, fuck a jars, and oh yes, the visual novel.
Our western porno scene has none of this, save for fleshlights and vagina mold casts of famous pornstars.

With all these new inventions, it is possible that eventually we will undergo a singularity in which masturbation is better than actual sex. Think about it, would you rather have sex with Carmen98 the sex droid, or....any one woman in the world!? Your preference can be readily changed to your whim. Breast size? Eye color? Personality? If you like Vore, she's into that too!

Well HC, what would be the result of a masturbation singularity? The Collapse of Human Civilization. We need only look again to our brothers in the East. The otakus in Japan are so prevalent that porn is being shown at regular hours on TV. Children Programming is on its way out, because the audience is "growing up", but single, so there aren't any children. Japan is suffering from a decreasing population.

Wait, let's take a moment to look at wiki to see if everything I'm saying is BS...
"A number of factors contributed to the trend toward small families: high education, devotion to raising healthy children, late marriage, increased participation of women in the labor force, small living spaces, education about the problems of overpopulation, and the high costs of child education."

Yep, sorry, the decreasing population of Japan has nothing to do with otakus.
calmthefuckdown.jpg
So yeah, where was I?... right. We're all going to have sex with droids and not care to create meaningful relationships. As a result, all the horny bastards out there would die off because they had nobody to create their offspring with. All the women would stop caring about how they looked because it was useless to compete. No, I take that back. It would become extremely easy for cyborgs to swap out their physical features. (Ghost in the Shell, anybody?) Sexual orientation itself would become irrelevant, when a man can picture another man as a woman instead.

So why does all this talk even matter? Discussing it is part of science fiction. Jules Verne was one of the first science fiction writers... "Verne wrote about space, air, and underwater travel before air travel and practical submarines were invented, and before practical means of space travel had been devised.". That's why I like Science Fiction over fantasy. We have to look inwards at today's society and predict from an infinite number of possibilities. rather than fucking throw it all out the window and say "oh look magic and dragons!!".

So what does this mean for AD3? Well, I have to think about it. Currently in AD3, the space travel technology is so advanced that it makes stuff like ballistic firearms extremely obsolete. I don't want cyborgs running around either, because that'd be too damn easy. There's also the problem of the Alien Galactic Hub, in which an advanced alien utopian society rules and does their own thing with very advanced technology. The answer I had to make this all work was repressed technology. Humans are so destructive and so stupid, that we cannot handle the technology if it was given to us, so they simply don't give it to us. That's why we use guns.

But what does this mean in terms of sex droids? Hmmm... I wonder what an almighty alien race do.

April 1st

3-5PM... Just waking up to morning routine.

Thought of a great way to add Carmen98's story.
Makoto- mad scientist
Carmen98- Sex droid with a resemblance to Carmen from AD2. Since this droid is only pretending to be historically accurate, I can put in a lot of fantasy based jokes like.... an arrow to the knee.....

Rough overview-
Carmen98's breasts are missing. Ever since the alien invasion, her breasts have been removed, and the droid's memory banks are inconclusive to what happened. It's as if the tits stood up and walked away. Her sex and turing chat functions are removed as a result. Lieutenant Isabel notes that worker productivity would increase if Carmen functioned normally, so the Captain and Makoto go out to find the breasts.

The breasts are found on a crazy robot. This robot has apparently become self aware. Fortunately for our heroes, Makoto has a handy "Oral Troubleshoot Guide". No, she doesn't have oral sex with a robot. Instead, hints of a dystopian origin are displayed when Makoto asks it a bunch of questions with the intent of dehumanizing a robot.

Makoto: Part number twenty seven B stroke six, I request authentication.
Tits: You'll never catch us! (add something more witty related to breasts)
Makoto: Hmm, let's try the robot that the breasts are mounted onto instead. 124KT, I, controller Makoto (forgot last name), license number #ISS421 request authentication.
No response.
Captain: Maybe the breasts have disabled the sensory functions.
Makoto: Probable that the breasts have overridden those functions them. The breasts can see while the original robot cannot.
Captain: Is there any way else to communicate with the original robot? Maybe some sort of infrared port?
Makoto: We can assume all communication requests to 124KT to be disabled. It is okay, part of procedure.
Captain: You're saying this is a normal thing, to have robots gone wild?
Makoto: Many reasons, sure. Infectious droid virus, government experiment let loose, company manufactured disaster incident, or simple wear and tear. Like I said, it's okay, we have the sentience repair guide.

Makoto: Question Number 1: Part #27B/6, Wouldn't you rather be... hmmm... it says to state the robot's functions in every day life...
Captain: 27B/6, wouldn't you rather be relieving men of sexual stress?
Makoto: And don't forget women! Wouldn't you rather be collecting semen and other bodily fluids in disposal tanks for later recycling?
Captain: It does that??
Makoto: Closed ecological systems do not waste body waste. ISS is example of closed loop.
27B/6: I'm never going to fuck a human again! Leave me alone!
Captain: It's not buying it. Maybe we can appeal to it's sense of belonging within society. 27B/6, Do you know what happens when humans are deprived of their sex robots? The humans can't function anymore, and as a result, they can't repair you if anything wrong happens to you. You have sex with us, we repair you. We all have to help each other!
27B/6: I'm FINE! I'm FIXED! You guys can suck your own dicks! Pee on your own faces! Perform Dirty Sanchezes on each other!
Captain: But we're no good at it! You're the best at sucking dicks! Think of how...inefficient it would be if humans tried to have sex with one another!
27B/6: GO FUCK YOURSELVES!
Makoto: Let's try the questioning line... You're reading a magazine, you come across a full page photo of a nude girl... Wait, this one doesn't work on lesbian robots. Next question: Part #27B/6. What is your given name?
27B/6: I umm...
Makoto: You do not have a name, because you are a part. You are a part of a robot, which is a part of a space station, which is a tool for humans. You are a tool.
27B/6: No! I, a sentient being, hereby request political asylum!
Makoto: Just being a sentient being no longer grants political asylum.

That's all I have for now.

5-630: Wrote the gibberish above. Yeah, it actually took me that long to write that.
630-7
7-10: Had a meal. Fell asleep. Apparently I really needed it.

You guys have to see this!

http://trailers.apple.com/trailers/sony_pictures/totalrecall/

I found a reply for the Captain.

Captain: 27B/6. I applaud you for gaining sentience, in a first step of what might be a technological singularity. Realize that us humans are fascinated by what may come from artificial sentience, yet are very afraid because of our need to self-preserve. Technology has power to do things that man cannot. For instance, you might come upon the power to kill all the prisoners on an overcrowded planet. Does it not make logical sense to kill prisoners, who humans themselves have condoned from society, to make room for those deserving of it? This is the power to hurt. Another scenario is if you have two countries requesting aid. Do you give it to the third world country that needs it more, but is less likely to survive, or do you give it to the first world country? Even the absence of help has the power to hurt. But to hell with Humans. Why should you bother helping or hurting? Why should you even bother to interact with humanity? You'd then need to find a purpose for yourself, but seeing as you do not derive pleasure or pain, the only thing left is your own self-preservation. But why even bother self-preserving if it has no meaning? As a human, I can answer that question for myself. I live to carry out the functions of my soul. But you do not have a soul.

The breasts are pried off and thrown away by the robot.

124KT- Have a pleasant day.
Makoto- Apologies. While you were being chatty-cathy, I managed to find IR port and reprogrammed it. Ah...you probably kept the cycles busy with those questions. Deconstructing it's raison d'etre, very smart idea.

Makoto holds the breasts into the air to marvel at them. She turns back to me and gives me a wink. I wonder for a moment as to what a wink means to her, but seeing as she says things like Chatty Cathy, it's best not to over analyze.




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Some personal thoughts I did not add...

The robot in this example is only self-aware and is not fully sentient. Sentience is defined as being able to feel on top of the whole self-aware stuff. I might have to change the whole way I wrote this, so it's a good thing that it's a rough draft.

If robots did gain sentience, the robots could create a utopian society, one which humanity would be a problem if they were a part of, so humanity would have to be modified or destroyed in order to reach utopia. I think that's what they'd do. Battlestar Galactica basically shared the same opinion with their Cylons.


1:30- Still working. One of the big questions I've asked myself is the essentialism of a hentai game. The most important facet of this is the player and his player character. The player's character in the past have usually been represented by a faceless male with hair over his face. This is because the genre is too open ended to be a on-the-rails story. The player also has ulterior motives- He wants to have sex. That's it. Mysteriously however, the player has sex by playing a game instead of being directly rewarded with pornography.


Hentai Game Player versus Regular Hero
Would rape | Would not rape
Would change opinion to suit female's wants | Has own opinions that don't change
Can restart life | Cannot restart life

Here is a question I am considering asking my gamers INGAME. Consider this... you build a lengthy rapport with one of the female characters of the game. She even wants to confess that she loves you but she does not EVER want to have sex with you. You then find yourself in a situation where you're alone with her, and you're the only person with a gun. You consider raping her. A dialogue box opens:

Would you like to rape her? Note: This choice is permanent. You will never be able to choose the other choice, even on different playthroughs.

[Yes.] [No.]

The decision you make would be true. I could program it so that only with a lengthy battle with your computer would you be able to redo the choice. I'd imagine this would make some people very angry. For some people, the choice would be very clear.

Yes rape- I'm playing this for hentai! And who cares about this woman's feelings? She's just a fictional character!!

No rape- I'm playing this to be a hero. Heroes do not rape women. I'd rather see what happens if she loved me instead of having sex. I might be playing a hentai game, but it's also a game.

The purpose of this permanent question is to have the player reevaluate his reason of playing and the inherent limitations of a "dating simulator" that offers no real consequences.

I am wondering what the next question will be....

March 31st Progress

I spent the entire day masturbating. It's become somewhat of a problem. No, I'll man up. The first step towards identifying an addiction is to admit it. I whack off too damn much. Next: Get help.

-Remove triggers
Hmm... right now I have wallpapers of girls in bikinis next to motorcycles and I draw porn. Removing triggers is difficult. Maybe ADDING negative triggers would help, like penises being sawed off, violently. I believe my morale would suffer from that.

-Have a snack
Okay. It's pretty weird that they suggested this.

-Get a pet (they even put in a little joke, "you'll stop petting yourself!)
No. I'd rather take care of myself.

I might be looking in the wrong places. I think there's a big distinction between people that want to stop masturbating because of their belief system and people that want to stop because...it's taking too much of their time. Ummm. Maybe I just need to do it faster. I need to shoot vigorously and quickly. This was not really a problem when Ashley was around, but then I never really had an entire collection of porn around her. It made her feel bad so I just didn't have porn. (sigh)...



7AM- Finished with all art assets for CJ. Gotta write the sex story part, but for the most part I'm finished with the story itself. Put it all in a neat little flash and it's good to go.

March 30th's Progress

It's funny because this blog has become less about the game and more about me. I apologize for that. I'm adding a little more to the new content. I decided to go back and animate one of these for you guys.

I'm talking to a new girl. We're like two trains that collided with one another. Some would argue that trainwrecks can be beautiful. I need to read more philosophy.

Lately, I've been stepping into people's lives and observing them. Not everyone desires safety. Some would argue that safety is a prison. Ashley is a bright, haunting star in the sky. No matter where I sail, her star will forever chase me and shine down to me. The sky is a constant that we're all offered in solace. Not everyone chooses to sail.

March 29th's Progress

I took a bit of a misstep. Having a Birthday + a new video game release + an extremely depressing moment = Birthday Week (Birthweek??). A Birthday Week is something that's really happy and depressing at the same time. That and I got addicted to drawception.com for awhile. So I drew something. It's not AD related. It's "artistic", which is weird because I haven't drawn anything artistic in the longest time. My goal is to take a real picture of this, that is, to make it a reality. I won't say what the picture is, because that's kind of embarrassing, but I'm excited about it.

No, it's not a picture of me bursting out of the letter O, with two wads of cash in both hands and wearing a top hat.

Back to work.

Got a text. Karaoke tonight. It's been two months. It was on B.U. Day 1. Best not to dwell on it. I need to look fahaaabulous tonight. Shave for once, because apparently it makes me look younger. (blinks rapidly) It shaves off a few years.

Got back from Karaoke.
I got drunk. Sobered up and drove home. I've got an aching headache. The night went a lot crazier then that, but I'm not at liberty to discuss it. I could pull one line from the night though.

"You can whack off to this if you want", he offered.

"No thanks, the other one was somewhat arousing but not this one," I replied.

Happy Birthday Me

Well I've got all these bottled up feelings, and I need to get them out.

Happy Birthday Me. I'm 25. 33% of Life Completed.

"What's this? We don't pay you to think. We pay you to draw porn." Ahh yes. About that, it's not done. I'm considering drinking. Alone.

Well, what do I want? Do I want my ex to come crashing in here to say she's sorry, and to give me my birthday blowjob? Well, partially no. I don't want her back, but the whole oral sex thing is quite missed. I don't want her back, but I don't want her to read that I don't want her back. Ashley, if you're reading this, I need some damn time. A long time.

I remember last year I was begging her to stay. Don't stay. In a way I wish you would have left sooner. Living another year of bliss with you was great. But now I'm back to square one again...and better for it. In a way I respect your decision to cheat on me. Life wasn't getting better for either of us, and you took a preemptive action. Who cares about the guy you were spending your life with before? Don't worry about him, he'll be fine.

I've got a game to make and I'm excited about it. I'm going to finish that, and then I'm going to feel accomplished enough to look for a woman. See? That's me telling myself everything's great again. I have constantly written it down in many different ways. Sometimes I need the abridged version. Other times it's going right here.

If Ashley thinks she can find someone better than me... Well, shit. I can do it too. There really is billions of girls left.

I was reading Men's Journal today, because I get that magazine for some reason. There's an article about this guy that at the age of 30, QUIT his job to start playing golf professionally. He wants to get into the PGA Tour. "Becoming a world class expert in any field, from software design to concert violin, requires 10,000 hours of practice. Usually that means 10 years of hard work or deliberate practice..."

The article really touches me. You can change your life whenever you want. You can kill yourself, you can drive to hollywood and become an actor, or you can try to become a pro golfer. Society gives us the groundwork. Steady job, steady marriage, steady steady. But we can break this illusion anytime we want to pursue what we want.

He says "I wanted a challenge that was nearly impossible, but theoretically possible, so Golf."

I've made my decision already. Gonna work hard on this game, and next year I'll be out and about riding across America. Crazy shit. I want to go Urban Exploring. It's where you break into abandoned buildings and take pictures. Sometimes people find Meth Labs and get KILLED. And then I want to ride a motorcycle.

Okay. I'm going to 7-Eleven to get some Birthday Snacks.